its hard

Life is being a bitch right nw. Its real hard fr me. truth is, I'm effing tired. I can't do anything. Kesian. Kan ? Dad lied. He told me not to cry. While actually, its okay to cry. I want rainbows. Now. So that I can smile and dont need to cry. So that dad is right. Why do I've the feeling being ignored ? Somehow, everybody does. Sometimes.